i’ll go into more detail about why i chose ‘upheld’ for the name of this blog later on, but for now – the idea that the God of the entire universe is holding you (yes, you) in the palm of His hand, should bring some real comfort! He’s not surprised, or panicked at the state of our world – He is all-knowing, all-powerful, and sustaining each one of our lives with His very hands.
i think some of us need to call out in the authority that we have in Jesus Christ – that we will not fear, we will not let the voices of evil cloud our judgement, or steal our joy – we will not give the devil a foothold in our lives.
since losing my daughter last year, i’ve been journaling a bit – to heal the broken places in my heart, to ink the places pain has taken me.
this entry really spoke to me recently, so i decided to post it:
‘Lord, break my will, break the chains that i’ve enslaved myself with. help me to choose your light and life over darkness. help me to choose peace, gentleness, goodness, self-control. shut down the devil in the name of Jesus Christ – he has no place in, or authority over my heart. i am loved and chosen by the Savior of the world! teach me to be more grateful – the lens by which i view the world has become cloudy, circumstances and disappointment have grayed out the places that used to shine bright with intense luster. Lord, remove these scales from my eyes – so i may behold my life, and your creation in all its glory without hesitation or fear – that the little details of love and life and beauty may shine brighter and more vivid in my mind than the pain. please help me to throw off what is hindering me, and run the race you have set before me! cleanse me of my sinful nature, and fill me with your Spirit. let my eyes see your wonders and my ears hear your goodness. may peace envelope me and gentleness and forgiveness reign in my heart. speak to me and through me. may i love with abandon and give recklessly without expectation of anything in return. may i be more like you each moment. i pray i am teachable, that my ears are tuned to your words, that my eyes are fixed on yours – that my hand is locked within your grasp. make me humbled in your presence – help me to be slow to speak, quick to listen, and slow to anger. may the words i speak and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you. may my actions bring life into others, and not death. help me to love sacrificially like you do. i need your Spirit to heal me, guide me, and uplift me – i need to be upheld, cradled in the hand of my creator, nestled safe in your presence.’
i hope you know just how much the God of the whole world loves you – He loves you.
you are not alone, you are not forgotten, you are His beloved.
upheld 